I underwent surgery to remove a benign fibroid that had grown too large. To my surprise, the doctors discovered some unrecognizable cells and decided to prevent any potential risk of ovarian cancer.
Upon waking up, I was shocked. The realization hit me that my chances of having a child had gone from slim to none. I felt devastated and questioned why this had happened to me.
My chances for bearing a child had rapidly gone from “declining” to a very solid “none.” I was horrified.
In the following weeks, I struggled with feelings of grief and emptiness as a woman. I turned to my faith, seeking solace and answers. I found myself angry at God for the hand I had been dealt.
Angry at God
I confided in a mentor, expressing my anger towards God and my difficulty in praying. She reassured me that it was normal to question and grieve, and that my relationship with God was still intact.
She encouraged me to pray from the heart, acknowledging that faith often comes with doubt. Her words lifted a weight off my shoulders and gave me a new way to communicate with God.
Despite her guidance, I continued to struggle with the loss of my dreams of motherhood. I doubted the power of prayer and questioned the fairness of life.
God, Are You Listening?
One day, feeling despondent, I prayed fervently for a sign from God. I pleaded for reassurance that He was listening, even if the answer was not what I desired.
Shortly after my prayer, I received a phone call informing me that I had won a beautiful jewelry set in a charity auction. I saw it as a sign from God, a reminder that He hears our cries and responds in mysterious ways.
I wear the jewelry as a symbol of God’s presence in my life, a tangible reminder that He is always listening, even in the midst of my doubts and struggles.